contemplate death: The great understanding of life 1

There is obviously much about death I do not understand.

Yes,and that is because you do not like to think about it. Yet you must contemplate death and loss the instant you perceive any moment of life,or you will not have perceive life at all,but know only the half of it.
Each moment ends the instant it begins. If you do not see this,you will not see what is exquisite in it, and you will call the moment ordinary.
Each interaction "begins to end" the inatant it "begins to begin." Only when this is truely contemplated and deeply understood does the full treasure of every moment-and of life itself-open to you.
Life can not give itself to you if you do not understand death. You must do more than understand it. You must love it,even as you love life.
Your time with each person would be glorified if you thought it was your last time with that person. Your experience of each moment would be enhance beyond measure if you thought it was the last such moment. Your refusal to contemplate your own death leads to your refusal to contemplate your own life.
You do not see it for what it is.You miss the moment,and all it holds for you.You look right past it instead of right through it.
When you look deeply at somethig,you see right through it.Then the illusion ceases to exist.Then you see a thing for what it really is.Only then can you really enjoy it-that is place joy into it.(To "enjoy" is to render something joyful.)